Sunday, June 16, 2013

Holiday #5: The Father I Couldn't Repay In A Lifetime

I don't want to sound as though I'm bragging. However, I believe I'm one of the few lucky people to have an awesome father. He has a strong heart and is very considerate. He encourages me during my ups and comforts me during my downs. In a way, I'm a spoiled child because of him. I can never thank him enough for what he has done for me.

Honestly, I didn't grow up with my father. My father works outside of the U.S. while I was studying in junior high, high school, and half my college. Every year, he would work hard to save up vacation days just to visit my mom, sister, and me. It was heartbreaking every time my family sees his leaving. In a long distance relationship, my parents experienced ups and downs - dealing with trusts and doubts. No matter what the obstacle was, my parents pulled through and now we're all living together. Because of this, I have respect towards my father for his endurance.

What makes me love my father? Well there are plenty of small reasons. However, not too long ago, I just graduated from college. It was a tough time for me. While all my friends were submitting applications for their desired grad schools, I was worrying over my student loans and my GPA. Let's be honest. I'm not one bit smart. I'm the most average of the average. I didn't receive any honors nor did I join any sororities or big clubs, so when I went to my graduation ceremony, I was only wearing my gown and the common sash my college was selling. So through out my senior year, I wasn't one bit looking forward to my graduation. My low GPA would not get me anywhere and I was really down knowing I still need to get a job to keep my student loans off my parents' shoulders. Well, just three days before my graduation, my father decided to have a talk with me. I don't know if he noticed I was down or not but the first thing he said to me was "don't worry." My father told me to keep my career options open and I should just try to get a small job. As for the student loans, I should not worry about them. Then he said something I never knew my parents would think about. He said I should just get a small job and enjoy my life a little as an adult. He worries that I'm spending so much time studying, I didn't get time to hang out with friends. In the beginning, I didn't really understand what he meant. In today's culture, it's normal for students to aim for college and beyond (if possible). That's what I thought but he explained how he was with my mom when she was 22. My parents were already working and traveling around the world for fun. Basically they were enjoying their young lives and now my father is worried that I may miss that life. Coming from an Asian father, this means a lot. I grew up thinking I need to satisfy their desires and because my father spoiled me, I feel even more pressured to repay him. Now knowing my father really cares about my happiness and tries to lighten my burden, I couldn't thank any divine spirit enough for my father. I couldn't thank my father enough for his love. He is one of the best gifts in my life and I wouldn't want him in any other way.

Happy Father's Day